Belladonna

I love you—more than the word ever dared, more than ink or breath has shared. Your name—it’s laced with quiet grace, but it’s your heart that holds my place. You make me feel like I belong in a world where I’ve felt wrong so long. You mirror parts I’ve yet to claim, and love me still, through joy and shame. I once sank deep in silent pain, overwhelmed by the smallest strain. But now—a little less ache, more light, a little more peace through softer night. You taught me care, you taught me grace, you helped me find my own embrace. And still, each day, my heart will say— “I love him more, come what may.” So may we walk through loss and gleam, through stumbles, storms, and every dream. In every tear and every smile— stay with me, if just a while—a lifetime. ~For him <3

Back to sane No feelings in vain, Just sitting in silence, With all that's insane. Been here before— I'm back, my friend. For all I've got Is you to stay. Let me breathe In your grace, For here I find My resting place. Let me cry, Let me pray— I'll be quiet, Just let this end. This one’s not about a person. It’s about that quiet place inside me where my heart and mind finally meet and are at peace—where everything just slows down. I’ve been there before, and I always find myself going back when things get a little too loud. Back to sane is a reminder that sometimes, peace doesn’t come from outside. It’s already there, within me—I just need to sit with it for a while.

WINTER AGAIN It is the time, The chill returns to claim its reign, A season marked by grief and pain, With icy threads that bind the veins. The frost clings heavy to the ground, A silence where no joy is found. Each breath a cloud of fleeting gray, Each step a ghost of yesterday. Beneath the sky, so cold, so wide, The world seems frozen from inside. Memories linger, sharp and clear, Like icy whispers near the ear. But winter comes, and winter goes, Through bitter winds and heavy snows. A season dark, yet not the end, For even ice will break and bend. So here we stand in winter's grip, A fragile, ever-drifting ship. And though the cold may seize the day, Spring waits  beneath this frozen sway.

Home --- Was waiting for a light to shine, Until I found solace In depths of darkness. For in the dark, there's no shadow. Pain is comfort, despair is home, Where tears fall like autumn's leaves alone. The silence is my lullaby; In sorrow's darkness, I reside. In this abyss, I find my peace, A strange solace, a dark release From expectations, from desires, Free from the weight of burning fires. Here, I am free to wander wide In shadows that are my heart's inside. No judgment, no pretense to hide, Just the quiet, hollow sense to abide. Stillness, emptiness, space to breathe, Where thoughts and emotions softly seethe. And in the void, I find my way To a somber peace, in endless day. ---

  Songs of flee Once a pretty soul Bounded by a crowl Walked along with me Singing songs of flee Only to believe life was better free Shadows chasing him Until the sun was dim Escaping till we breathe It's only been a week But soul feels so weak Fragile heart beats slow Longing for life to glow Now we run along Save us from the dim Hold on to what's bright Don't let the shadows win.

Hope In Disguise Everyone thinks I'm fine, But only I know my heart's confine. Behind lively eyes, I conceal my pain, A mask that hides my true self in vain. No one understands, or so I've found, So I bear the weight, alone and bound. But still I hold on to hope's pure light, A beacon guiding through life's darkest night. Time heals, they say, and I believe, That rain will cease, and sunshine will relieve. Each bad day passes, making way for new, A rainbow after rain, a dawn breaks through. Not today, nor tomorrow, but one day, Change will come, and drive the blues away. I'll find my lost happiness, it's not gone, Just hidden, waiting to be rediscovered strong. So I'll keep moving forward, never still, Holding hope close, against life's chill. Go on, never lose hope, I tell my soul, A brighter future awaits, making me whole. ^_^ Keep shining, hold on to hope.

Fireflies Be like a firefly, Stay bright and fly high. You can't light up the sky, But can surely light up your sight. Amidst the vast, endless night, Your glow, a spark so slight, May seem small, a flickering gleam, Yet it's the bearer of dreams unseen. In shadows where silence lies, Your light whispers, "Hope never dies." Though the stars may outshine your glow, Your unique spark helps others grow. So dance with the winds, embrace the dark, Every flash leaves its radiant mark. You may be tiny, but you're not weak, For even small lights are what we seek. Be like a firefly, Illuminate hearts passing by. A beacon of courage, a flicker of grace, A little miracle in life's vast space.